~*R@in's BlOggiE*~

A boy and a girl The best of friends From elementary to high school From beginning to the end Through all these years Their friendship grew They both felt the same But neither knew Each waking moment Since the day that they met They both loved each other Sunrise to sunset He was all she had In her terrible life He was the one Who kept her from her knife She was his angel She made him smile Though life threw him curves She made it worth all the while Then one day Things went terribly wrong The next few weeks Were like a very sad song He made her jealous On purpose he tried When the girl asked "do you love her?" On purpose he lied He played with jealousy Like it was a game Little did he know Things would never be the same His plan was working But he had no clue How wrong things would go The damage he'd do Then one night she broke down Feeling very alone Just her and the blade No one was home She dialed his number He answered "hello" She told him she loved him Then...

hm. yest nite went to dine @ Si Chuan Dou Hua Rest. wit my family. the rest. were so bz. staffs & waitress rushing here & there serving ppl. hm. i saw 'him'. keke. shh... but he not servin my table. but had a great dinner. yummy. we oso got a lucky draw.. win a si chuan dou hua eight treasure tea 1 box leh not bad yo.. erm. we finished off @ abt 9pm. but i start work 11pm. my family go dunno where le den i dunno wat to do lo. so i go write my reports abt smth i did wrong w/ regards of a guest. after tt still got plenty of time yo.. so i change to my uniform den start work early lo. c i so good lolx. started 1 hr+ earlier. hm. first time i finished my whole shift doin main cashier neh... not bad.. quite fun indeed. keke. [but if short of $$.. gotta pay den NOT fun le lo] keke. first time my cash sale is $1400++ yo.. kinda happy. keke. somemore i got $2 extra.. the 'tips' from guests yo.. hmm.. but morning when passin over shift kinda quarrelled wit pauline. urgh....

after so many nite shiftz yo.. bac to normal shift la.. hm. nite shift really not bad yo.. 1st 2 nitez wit shidah, 3rd nite wit chu, 4th nite wit ju, & last nite wit darlinx. i was main cashier wit ravin yo so scary.. but luckily he got help ba & mid shift he change wit me. he got do da cashier stuffz coz i dunno ma. somemore da nite i worked wit ju she got tell me abit abt cashier. chu oso got. hm. they all so good neh.. luckily not tt bz yo.. still rem tt time wah... so many arrivals.. can peng san 1.. hm. tt time worked wit chu le den morning go eat Mac breakfast yo. hotcakes.. yummy yummy.. den we chat alot.. tis morning after shift darlinx brought me to a malay shop juz opp our hotel. ate nasi lemak. wit milo kosong gau gau. keke.. not bad ba.. yest nite laughed alot. were playin quiz wit ravin.. lolx so funny. still got some haben solved yo.. hm.. ok la. me tomoro work morning le. after tt goin my bro's fren bday party yo.. k will be bac yo. tat@~

hm. me juz woke up. came bac home tiz morning. coz work midnite shift til thurs yo. hm. last thurs, 14/4, me, chel, ju, shidah work morning. (suppose to be chu oso but shidah change shift wit her last min). we all planned to go eat seoul garden yo. jace on leave. pauline off day. so we ask them along. mr yeo wanted to go but he got things to do so cant. agus & my darlin workin midnite but agus got smth on.. darlinx dun wanna go bcoz of some reason.. so wasted. so oni 6 of us go lo. we reached there ard 4.30pm.. eat til 6.30pm.. hm not bad.. pualine so funny & cartoon 1. we all cant stop laughing. den we went to tk those stickers pic after makan. the 6 of us squeeze in the pic seh.. lolx. were so hot in there. but had lotza fun! i left them @ abt 7+pm.. took train wit pualine to tiong bahru mrt den she taught me how to tk bus go to the temple at zion. more easier. hm. reached there but my parents not there. they go makan. den the temple got quite a no. of those youngster act act...

duhx. lost my phone. @ safra yishun. while waiting for bowling lanes. bring my jap cousin bro to funland. played daytona with my elder bro. left my phone there. so careless. forgetful. so regret. by da time i went bac.. itz gone. so fast. within mins. i called my phone using my elder bro's. a guy ans. 'halo.. halo..' den hung up. urgh. i cried. it juz happen in a sudden. cant believe it. wonder y tiz happen to me. y me. last month i saw a teenager dropped her phone on the floor.. i went up to her. juz to returned. but y i dun get the 'same thing' in return? maybe itz godz decision. haiz. me heartpain not becoz of my phone. itz my sim card. all da looong lost frenz contacts. all gone. all my saved filez.. memorable picz. mms.. meaningful sms.. all gone.. really sadx. who i call.. my family.. who else.. only remember ravins no. coz we juz sms last nite. but i gotta c him now & then.. so itz fine not remebering. but.. all other contacts.. gone.. how to get bac in t...

haha on 30/03 Wed morning my darlinx ravin gave me his 1st 'morning call' yo. so nice of him. hm. long time nv watch movie le.. tt morning i worked morning shift. my jap cousin sis wanna ask me bring her go c movie, the eye 10. actually i dun wanna watch coz it seemz not that nice.. but sandra watched it wit her frenz & told me gotta watch tt coz itz nice so i brot my jap cousin sis wit my elder bro & louis, went down to town to watch after my work. lido shaw house. itz weekday.. so not much ppl.. abo weekend the Q will be beri beri long 1. hm. yea chu was rite.. the show quite nice.. scary horror & funni. beri funni yo. i laughed so hard til i cough lolx. den next morning (yest) i work morning shift again. wit ravin & pauline. darlinx sent me a 'wake up sms' again. wah if everyday morning i sms or call me to wake up den good yo.. wun overslept. coz nowadayz me kinda overslept. coz too tired le. hm. i reached my workplace. changed. told darlinx how nice...

3 midnite shiftz in a row.. wit ju.. den wit ravin my darlinx for 2nitez.. da nite wit ju was fine. everything's ok. den 2nd nite wit ravin. was fine too. wit my yee, the funni guy. our supper tt nite was juz pieces of cakes. so mr yee ask us to order food from cafe plaza. so nice.. mr yee eat fish & chip. & ravin ordered for me & himself mee goreng. was nice but abit spicy lo. but nvm can eat. not bad. after the duty we went to eat the bee hoon behind keypoint there. den went bac. yest.. my 3rd nite shift.. started shift wit 41 more expected arrivals... so many. only me & ravin yo. but wat to do. pray hard it wun be bz lo. somemore wit ah thong somemore.. can faint.. -_-. our supper was spaghetti. but ravin again went to ordered something else. for free yo. he ordered seafood hor fun. we share 1 pack lo. hm. we bz bz thong nv come help yo. urgh. somemore that nite rm #270 reg card missing. ravin search high & low. & sandra's checked in a gst but linked ...

yest worked morning shift wit pauline, rachel & ravin. after work ravin darlinx went bac to his apartment to tk a shower. me & da jie (chel) went to a shop behind the apartment as she wanna buy cakes. den we waited for ravin under his apartment. itz 4+pm. we went to ya kun kaya toast @ raffles hospital to hav a drink & some bitez. we chat.. chat.. den we went to bugis junction to tk the sticker picz. 1st time tkin wit darlinx. took wit da jie b4 le. hm. itz turned out not bad ba. quite nice. so fun tkin those stuffs. after tt we all went bac lo. ravin gotta go for class. i went home, bathe. took a nap @ abt 7+pm. woke up @ abt 10+pm. left home for the airport wit my family @ abt 11.30pm. wanna fetch my aunt & cousin from jap. reached home ard 2am. slept @ abt 3am. woke up @ 4am for work today. urgh. really really tired tis few days. abt 3 days le. only slept abt 1 or 2 hours. cant tk it. tmr working night shift. gotta rest mooore! maybe ltr in the evening tmr will bring...

hm. juz come bac from work. yest was ravin's bday. he worked afternoon shift. i work midnite shift. so b4 work i went to buy presents for him. suraya met me up & we went tog. city link. suntec city. we shop quite alot. i bot for him a sleeveless shirt & a peppermint mouthspray which has a beri funni name 'Gay Accent'. lolx. i buy juz bcoz of da funni name. he would laugh for tt. keke. hm. su didnt buy anything coz shez undecisive. dunno which to buy.. wat to buy.. & so. hm. after i bot the things.. we went to eat pizza hut. we were laughing alwayz. shez funi. hm. we enjoyed the pizza ourself w/o ravin on his bday! lolx. but he work b shift too bad lo. hm. after eating. we went down to ravin's apartment (juz across the hotel). met up muthu. passed him ravin's present. asked him to put it on his bed. juz to give him a surprise. keke. when i went to work. i met ravin (of coz). i wished him 'happy birthday'. but i told him i did not buy anything for ...

hm. on fri me & chu work afternoon shift. den sat (yest) we both tog 'bac-to-bac' wor. work morning. we both came to work in the morning looked so sleepy. my duty mngr oso. same wit us bac-to-bac. urgh. after work me & chu walked down to suntec city to c the IT show 2005. oh my soooooo many ppl. we all walked like penguin.. muz squeezed here & there. walked a round there den walked thru citylink.. up to raffles city shopping cntr food court to eat. were so hungry. she ate noodles. i ate jap food, katsu don. nice. i bot oso a special 'mixed fruits rojak'. we shared. not bad la. wah. were soo full. uncomfortably full man. den we took mrt bac home lo. today me work morning oso. not enuff slp man. work morning alwayz like tt. went to work soooo sleepy again.. like no energy. den after work me went down to suntec again myself becoz i wanna buy the cd-rom for pc. language learning 1. (thai). coz today last day le abo me wun go 1 coz itz sun.. more ppl!! same thing...

hm. yest we celebrated my 2nd elder bro's 21st bday @ my work place. plaza parkroyal hotel. cafe plaza. i made a reservation for a table of 11 pax & 1 child below 3. Euro-asian buffet (japanese special). but den last min add 4 more pax & 1 infant. tog got 17 of us. a big party. me.. mum. dad. eldest bro. sis-in-law. niece. elder sis. elder bro (bday boi). uncle albert (my hotel's banquet operation manager). his wife auntie anna. uncle jimmy. ah pat. louis. baby dawn. uncle ricky. my cousin sis. & her bf. my elder bro blanja lo. itz $27.80+++ per pax. but uncle albert was there so got 50% discount off total bill. so the billz only abt $230. so cheap for so many ppl!! we started at ard 7.45pm. finished ard 10.30pm. saw ravin, chel, din & agus on duty. chat wit them a while. hm. ate our cake. nice. the buffet was nice too. i like the choco cake. which i put ice cream on top to make it like brownie. itz niCe!! my creation. loLx. den after makan my eldest bro, sis-in...

da day b4 i started my 1st eva midnite shift wit jacelyn & pualine. b4 work i went to northpoint to buy a gift for ball. in da end i bot 2 t-shirtz for him. den i bot a nice lil' hard box to put 'em inside. but i brot everything to work.. when free den tk out & do the gift lo..keke. hm. tt nite jacelyn tot me lotza things.. printing of reports.. distrubution of reports.. doin da reg cards.. wake-up calls.. & so. i tried to catch'up as much as i could. jot down every info on papers. after shift @ abt 7+am me & she went down to bugis junction Mcdonald's & had our breakfast. she blanja. dun wanna tk my money. lolx. den i say next morning i will blanja. i ate sausage mcmuffin w/ egg, hashbrown & orange juice. she ate hotcakes, hashbrown & coffee. den we eat eat chat chat. left @ abt 8.30am. i reached home @ abt 9+am. faster went to find ribbons.. to wrap da box. hm. it lookz nice. hope he'll like it. i've aready pass it to my mum to pass ...

hm. juz got bac from work. tis morning woke up @ 12nn. den ball called. hez @ the airport. wit uncle jimmy they all. ttz his last call b4 he left. i wished him well.. & everything. den we end the conversation. left home @ abt 1.30pm. met huiyi under my blk. shez still tt sweet. shez bac in skool to ask abt registering for poly. only chat awhile. den i left for work. work afternoon shift. hm. tomoro suppose to start my first eva midnite shift. but was changed bac to afternoon shift coz pauline mc. need ppl for B shift. so they pull me bac lo. i dun mind actually. not bac-to-bac can le. k. juz got bac from work. kinda tired. gtg. tat@!

hm. yest work afternoon. today work morning. itz 'bac-to-bac'. only slept a while. suppose to work afternoon shift but changed with Din coz wanna go out wit ball in da afternoon. itz a sad thing tt hez goin bac to thai tomoro. & itz really tomoro. real fast. got not much time to spend wit him. he told me abt his departure juz 1 week before. & i gotta work. 6 days per week. hm. after work met him at bugis mrt @ 3.30pm. den tk mrt to yishun. reach there abt 4+pm. booked a movie tix for 'I Do I Do' @ 5pm. den went to burger king at GV. ate 'chicken whopper meal'. ball nv eat coz he eat le. hm. over there i saw quite a few o fmy old frenz. like parames.. sangaran.. chen xiong.. shi jun.. etc. but they nv c me. saw wei chiang, rong jun, jian xiong, fidah etc. @ north point. chiang they all got their 'o' lvl results le. he got 25 points. not bad ba. hope he will hav good future. we will go out next time. hm. den ltr i eat finish we go c movie. da show ...

juz now went bac to shatec skool to tk my final result (module 6 transcript). met raidah at 12+pm @ bukit batok mrt. den go to skool.. jalan jalan ard the skool.. cant find my skool mates.. sad.. den saw some tutors.. chat a lil'.. den took our results. den went to west mall walk walk. eat. sat down & chat. until abt 6pm. den i went home. hm. really miss my shatec frenz all ard da skool.. miss da times i had wit them.. laughin tog.. chatin in da library.. meetin new frens.. sayin 'hi' to everyone in skool.. goin out wit them.. urgh. but itz all over.. hm. tt time i saw a couple in my hotel.. i envy the lady alot.. becoz she isnt pretty.. but the husband is an 'ang-moh' & beri beri handsome.. haiz.. aniway.. hope i'm gonna finish my attachment fast. i wanna hav a long break.

Hand me back my halo Repair each broken wing Redeem the graceful words This angel longs to sing. Un-cry the tears I’ve cried Brighten my sky from grey Put some hope beneath my wings And I’ll gladly fly away. Unstitch the smile I’ve sewn Make a face pure perfection A gentle mind and thoughts With joy in each reflection. No burning crimson tides No craving for the knife No voices cursing silently A pathetic, worthless life. Reason my existence A reason just for me I’m searching with blind eyes That’s why I can’t see. The light too far to reach Temptation far too strong This angel’s falling slowly But I know I’m often wrong. So regenerate my faith Put sight behind each eye Mend this broken angel And gracefully, I’ll fly.

finally bac to msia. hm. me went to msia on 18/2. took mc on tt day coz me sick. cough until headache & they put me bac to bac. hm. went in wit my parents, ah pat, louis, lil' baby & uncle jimmy. uncle ricky oso followed us. andy, alex & ah kiong at nite den come in. oh yea. tt nite at abt 10pm the almost the whole perling was blackout. all dark. only can c the moon & stars. wat can we do. nth much. the house is dark too. we lit candles. den we put fire crackers. lolx so nice. loud oso. the electricity came bac at abt 12.45am. we went.. 'phew!..'. were happi tt it came bac. me slept at abt 2.30am. my mum played cards wit andy they all & uncle ricky until abt 5 in the morning. andy they slept at the corridor at the 2nd floor coz no rooms for them le. hm. da next day, sat 19/2.. i woke up at abt 11am. den went out to eat at abt noon. we ate kuay tiao kia. beri nice. den went to buy some stuffs at the Store. den went home. den came out again to a pet shop. ...

it hav been long since i last blogged. my chinese new year supposed to be a beri happy 1. but something happened that makes me bz & sad. k. i'll recall bac.. 08 Feb Lunar New Year. i worked morning shift. after work at abt 3pm. accompany chu go bugis junction jalan jalan while waitin for her uncle to fetch her go m'sia. at abt 4pm we left. i got home. my eldest bro.. sis-in-law.. lil' niece.. grandparents all there le. i bathed den we had our Reunion Dinner. it was wonderful. 09 Feb Chinese New Year. worked morning shift. after work i headed straight home. but i slept in the train. when i was awaken.. i'm at marsiling.. my gosh. overslept. so i alight & board the next train bac to yishun lo. when i got home.. my eldest bro, sis-in-law, lil' niece, grandparents there le. ah pat & louis were aready there waiting for me. they were eatin le. i joined in. after eatin, i took a shower & chat wit them. my aunt, cousin bro, cousin sis, and her bf came ltr....

hm. yesterday me work morning shift. finish 3+pm. den me rachel & keline went to bugis junction jalan jalan awhile lo. me & chel went to tk sticker picz! quite nice & funni. den we bot takoyaki. so nice.. den c here c there. we planned to hav dinner at Si Chuan Dou Hua Rest. @ 6.30pm wit mr. Ralph Ng, my front office manager.. so abt 6.05pm we walk bac to hotel lo. meet sandra & pauline there. den chit chat a while at biz centre. Ravin was on duty. den he helped me scan some of my sticker pic. thankz to him. keke. den abt 6.30pm le we all go to the rest. & hav our seats. tk our orderz. & laugh along. nice being wit them. Mr. Ng is nice & 'open'. we ate quite alot. keline ate lotza shark fins. halfway eatin, mr Thong my duty mngr came in & say i did not tell a guest abt his meals so i gotta pay $103. but my colleague there discuss & mr ng say we minus off the actual actual rate the guest shld pay & den we all shared to pay the rest. they r...

hm. juz now me went out wit sandra.. me alwayz call her 'chu'. keke. she like my jie. we went down town. to shaw house lido.. reach there 4.15pm like tt. wanna c movie. lucky itz weekday abo the queue will be beri beri long wor. we bot da tix 'Hotel Rwanda' @ 5.15pm. she gave me den we go far east tk sticker pic. i blanja. coz she haven tk the change for the movie tix. she gave me $10 for tt. hm. snap snap. nice yo! she beri cute. lolx. by da time we finish tkin itz abt 5pm le. not much time ot eat. so we went bac to lido there c got wat thingy to eat nor. den we decide to eat KFC. yummy long time nv eat tt le. she order zinger meal den me order the new 'shrooms burger' meal. she blanja. coz she say she haben pay for the sstix picz. lolx. she dun want my money. alwayz like tt.... hm. my burger dun look so nice but eat hor quite nice yo. bcoz i love mushroomz... burger king mushroom swiss cannot eat ma coz itz beef. hm.. chic wit shroomz. yummy. got cheese friez ...