~fOr dA gUy i fEeL sOrRiEz.~

wEihAo. i'm sorry to hav hurt ya. but i juz wanna explain to ya here. u may not c tiz. or u will. i dunno. but i will juz say... after so many heartbreakz tt happened to me last time. i dare not step into any relationshipz. i hardly love anyone. but after monthz & monthz. i tot tt da kinda feelin comez bac. i tot tt i found love again. ttz y i accept ya. yea i was happy being wit ya. but i dunno y... it turnz out like tiz. my feelinz is gone suddenly. u may not believe me. but i've tried. but cant. u may think tt tiz r all excusez. coz u dun understand my past maybe. i've been tinkin abt tiz for dayz. cried alone. many timez. i slept wit tearz fallin. but u dunno. coz i dun wanna hurt ya. but den. i tot to myself. if da feelinz is gone, & i still go on wit ya, i feel like i'm lyin to myself & itz like i'm playin wit ya. i hate to play peepz feelingz. but if... i still go on wit ya, tryin to get bac my feelinz, but in da end therez nothing, i will hurt u more. i've been tinkin abt tiz for quite sometime. & i tot. if we end now. i tink u wun hurt tt deep coz itz juz a beri short relationship. & u can recover fast. so tt u wun waste ya time on me. i bet there r galz out there tt suitz ya more den me. 'chang tong bu ru duan tong'. rite? maybe in tiz relationship. our charac dun match or wat. i dunno. wheneva i tink abt it. i cant control my tearz. i really didnt wanna hurt ya tiz way. i really feel bad and guilty. haiz. so now. we r bac to b4. like last time. we r good frenz. r we?? we alwayz chat in msn. hope tt u can still accept me bac as ya good fren. close fren. or 'sista'. i dun mind. coz i'm open. but for ya i dunno. u may not be as frenly and open as i am. if u dun wanna accept me. den i got nth to say ba. but. i really hope tt tiz very short term relationship wun ruin our frenship ba. anyway. i say so much. dunno u will c or not. but juz hope we'll keep in touch. sms me wen u r boring. ask me out wen u feel like. ttz wat frenz r for. rite? hm. still rem last time we went out tog wit laren todeff and so. i miss da timez. so wen ya c me in msn or wat. chat wit me if u wan. i dunno if u wanna chat wit me or not so i wun disturb ya. but i'll alwayz be there to chat wit. anyway. thankz for da time. i really appreciate. bro. u tk care. again. i'm sorry. ChEeRz!