~*R@in's BlOggiE*~

She had always liked him But never truly knew why He never talked to her His friends had made her cry She smiled at him in the hall He just turned his head He did not care about her Is what he always said But she kept her chin up And she loved him still Because she knew what was inside A hole that she could fill His friends soon caught word Of her feelings toward him They found it hysterical But her love did not dim She knew that she was better Than what they thought she was But still her heart was his For reasons she knew not of She slowly became more forlorn Slipping deep into a hole He was still ignoring her Breaking her delicate soul But her love did not falter She always thought of him But all the rumors about her Put her closer to the brim On the final day His friends played a trick Told her that he loved her Just to watch her tick Sadly she believed them And she was overjoyed Little did she know That it was all a ploy She went up to him To make sure that he knew That she knew ho...

hm. woke up at 9.30am tiz morning. left home at 11am wit my parentz. went down to temple along zion rd. chat a while wit uncle jimmy. 'orh gao' uncle went to ta pao duck rice for us. ate there. got appointment wit mr. ronnie tan at uic building at 2.30pm. went down there. after that followed my dad go round his worksitez. while in da car, 'he' comes into my mind. tinkin of him as alwayz.. so i sms him. he replied. we chat (thru sms). finally.. he confessed. lolx. i've been waiting all tiz while. but.. we hav yet to know each other really well. so.. im afraid it might be juz a dream. maybe he doesnt mean it. but he said he is serious. should i believe? sorri. im juz not sure. not that i dun trust him. itz juz that.. the ending might not be wat i tink or expect.. which will sadden me more. i'll suffer. without anyone'z concern. understanding. im afraid i might expect too much, which will turnz out into deep disappointment. i dun wan to feel that way. that kind...

[above picz: (left) my late 'lao pa'/goddad sitting down, far left. (rite) my late aunt] ~*tHe MeMoRiEz LeFt bEhiNd...*~ Sweet Memories are all we have left. After your unexpected death. Memories of laughter, memories of tears. You helped me face my problems and concure my fears. You helped me learn the true meaning of love. Know your helping and teaching the angels up above. Your smile was a thousand miles long. You were always confident and strong. Day after day we fight to hold on. struggling with life from dusk 'til dawn. Life has been bitter but the memories are still sweet. 'lao pa', 'toa yi', we will alwayz miss you... and will live in our heart foreva.

hm. tiz morning went bac to skool. SHATEC. (s'pore hotel and tourism education college). wit minah, rena, nurul, raidah, rosie!! "da introverterz"! [see thoze picz on da rite!] keke. miz skool lotz. but see lotza new facez.. hav yet to c all those skoolmates of mine from early batch. tink they'r aready out to industries/outletz ba. was bac to skool to hand bac the skool'z Log Book. i completed it. mr tham checked & said 'ok'. ("phew..") lolx. erm. c the same old tutorz.. i took picz wit them!! lolx happi. den we went to eat Mac @ da place opp bukit batok mrt. til abt 2pm. nurul & rosie went off. da rest of us went to West Mall jalan jalan a lil' den go library sat down.. private tokz. til abt 4pm. we went game arcade played Daytona.. lolx. itz raidah'z first time playin. so funni. kinda exciting lo. i played 2 games. den we went off. i took train from bukit batok to tiong bahru. den from there take bus no. 16 to the temple along ...

yoyOz.. bac home. hm. today i recieved a sms from him. glad. actually wanted to sms him but tink tink.. i intend not to. den suddenly i c his name in my inbox. lolx. it juz bright up my day. nice chattin wit him. found out things abt him. but ttz not all. next time gotta find out more. lolx. hm. last few days was a let down.. by not having any replies from him. but today kinda surprise. hm. im not forgotten! lolx. juz wanna console myself. dun luff at me. erm.. actually i prefer good frenz & buddiez more den 'boyfren'. maybe at the moment i feels tt good frenz last longer ba. keke. k i gtg. startin to feel hungry. yet to hav my dinner yo. tata. nitEz.

hey hey finally im bac after soo long. hav been bz. tryin to finish my attachment.. happily. hav been tryin to snap picz (last min) wit many ppl, colleagues & frenz workin there. manage to grab quite a no. but not much. hmm... but. at least i manage to get a guyz hp no. b4 i leave. since i started work there.. ive been seein those guyz workin at the si chuan dou hua restaurant. sometimes we do smile at each other.. once in a while they disturb me.. we laughed... we rarely tok. they noticed my name but i duno theirz. coz i alwayz dun dare to look at them. (i blushed easily.. sooo pai seh!). not til sept.. when im in hskp.. i saw him.. den he asked me wat im doin.. den i ans him. he asked me abt my hair.. (wen im workin.. it seems short. but b4/after work, itz long again.) den i ans him. i find it weird tokin to ppl like colleagues/frenz but i dunno their name. so i peeped at his name tag obviously.. wantin to know his name. itz 'sky'. lolx. nice name. but i laughed. kinda su...

hmm. time really fliez. next week will be the last week of my attachment at plaza. happy to complete it. but sad to leave those super nice & fun ppl/frenz/sis/darlinx. many of 'em treat me real nice.. like im their youngest sis (as im da youngest workin their keke). taken care of me.. erm. but aniwae itz not e end of da world. we can still meet out if we hav time. can still keep in touch. hav taken lotza photoz wit 'em. but not yet wit the hskp. maybe i'll try to. i love takin pics wit all ppl i know as a memory. they hav once stepped into my life makin me happy. but i promise. after i left.. i will be bac there to c them & the newly renovated lobby. hmm.. therez something i really need to do & finish it fast. itz my shatec logbook. they hav yet to complete it. gotta let my DM & supervisors to sign real fast. gotta hand it bac to skool by next week. erm.. today im workin nite shift. (juz woke up not long ago keke). workin wit 'er jie' jacelyn. loooon...

hm. been quite sometime since i last blogged. had fever the week b4 for abt 3 days. after that flu, running nose, for 1 week+. really jia lat yo.. gotta work.. kept sneezing while attendin gstz. when the flu finally go away.. i lost my voice. no pain at first.. juz voiceless. but today.. itz so pain.. and workin in service line got no choice gotta tok alot. gsts cant hear wat im sayin i repeat again & again forcing my voice out. now real pain o.. hope will recover soon. duhz.. tired o.. but muz tahan.. abt 1 month left for my attachment to complete. was asked by my fom if i wanna continue to work there but decided not to as i will oni hav a shatec cert after my attachment & nth else.. i tink i gotta study more. that COA cert is kinda 'normal'. if i were to continue, itz like im steppin into a workin life aready. i dun tink i will survive havin juz that cert unless i gonna work in tt hotel. maybe i shld try other new things diff frm hotel line. but after my attachment im...

Walk with me, the path of life, to explore every bend of the road Enjoy with me the beauty of life, along its wonderful way Find comfort with me, in each other's arms, when grief crosses our path Find strength with me, in each other's strength, when despair lies in wait Laugh with me, a single true laugh, to enlighten another's distress Cry with me, a single true tear, to understand true happiness Cherish with me, the wonders of life, as they need to be preserved Rejoice with me, in the mysteries, of what is yet to be Find peace with me, in each other's souls, when the world has gone insane Find love with me, in each other's hearts, until this life has been fulfilled And when the path comes to an end I hope we can say from within We've known the beauty of true love, our love came from within

juz reach home not long ago. went to town. me & chu (sandra) planned to meet @ ard 2.30pm, somerset mrt. but she say she gonna be late. me too. i reached ard 2.45pm. went to cineleisure myself to walk ard while waitin for her. den go outside sit down... wait... den go bac in again.. walk ard.. den go outside sit.. waitin.. she came ard 3.30pm. she dressed so cute hee. den we go kfc eat lunch. den go walk walk ard.. waitin for siew fun.. bringin da hskp 'gang'. lol. those room stewardz (maids). wen fang, huang cong, zhuang rong, ping di & jun jun. den we all go KBox on level 4. siew fun got member card. so per pax is $9.60+++ w/ 2 standard drinks. we started @ ard 5pm. sang lotz.. da china guyz sang so loudly yo.. chu use microphone but da guyz nv use oso cannot hear chu'z singin o.. lolx. they turn da music so loud that i tried to shut my ears oso can hear o.. from the kbox entrance so far oso can hear our singin o.. after that i got a bad headache. now ok le.but ha...

A soft breeze gently rustles the golden leaves that have fallen scattered about, below the twisted grey branches of the tree from which we used to swing. Our names, carved by the hand of this tenderhearted young boy, still echo love, of youth and of each other. I now take your hand in mine, and beneath the shadow of this tree, a testament and reminder of our love, I ask that we never allow it to fade into the grayness of those limbs or to dry and crumble like the leaves that have fallen to the ground. But that we allow it to grow ever upward, and to be strong, as the trunk of the great tree itself that bears the evidence of this great love, which beneath its arms began...

im bac. from sadness, tears, pain. my aunt juz passed away in an accident @ woodlands ave 12 last thurs. was real sad. my cousinz.. mum.. me.. sis.. all! saaad... even my aunt in japan rushed bac to spore to pay her last respect. now she in heaven. maybe itz beta for her to be where she is now. i was real tired.. exhausted. had sleepless nitez.. & from all da cryings. but we can only rem her in our heart. life is really unpredictable. we should alwayz treasure everyone ard us.. not to hav any "yi han" (regretz).... juz now worked hskp 3-11pm. followed annie to do roomz. laughed alot. that auntie is sooo funny. altho she "lookz" fierce. den when we finished cleanin our roomz.. we went down to help sally & zong chang wit their roomz. more laughterz!! all so funny.. that china guy "ah chang" keep disturbing me. really laughed alot. hm. hope tomoro oso like tt. den my days will pass faster. friday, my last day @ hskp.. will be learning @ linen dept. 10...

hm. today. my 1st 3-11pm shift @ housekeepin. with juniorz Maggie & Sally. workin wit yong sheng.. zhuang rong.. mahani.. ah kim. houseman Ali. quite fun actually. maybe itz bcoz workin wit nice & fun ppl.. maggie so cartoon 1 yo. hm. shez nice. she made her own 'longan drink' @ home & brought me & huang cong 1 bottle each. 1 for herself too. bought some pies @ tampines mall on her way to work. i ate 1 potato chix pie & 1/2 of chix wit egg pie. another 1/2 i gave maggie. cant finish. she brought her own 'instant 3 in 1 milk tea & coffee'. she knowz i wana drink da milk tea. keke. but she cant drink them (as per her doctor). & oso by huang cong. he asked me to watch over maggie not to drink coffee but a lil' tea can.. keke. but.. i can only help him watch over maggie for tiz month only yo.. after that me goin bac to front office. hm. den abt 4.30pm.. me follow yong sheng go to orchid club 6th flr rooms to do turn down services. quite nice ...

worked 8-4pm tiz morning. but claimed 1 hr to go out wit my bro & his frenz (you jin, her bf, bai hui, may chin, huei ming, kim koon). they say gonna meet @ 3pm. BUT! all came later den 4pm. duhz... waste my hour. my bro soo gan jiong yoo.. aiyo.. hm. actually da outin is to celebrate huei ming's bday. we went to bowl.. i love bowlin. miss it. looong time nv play le.. i alwayz wanna challenge huei ming. keke. hm. today kim koon brought his new (1st eva) gf. lolx. wanna show off yo.. keke. we all played 2 games each. til evening. den we went to eat da steamboat lo. we all chat.. laughed.. alot alotz.. den abt 7.45pm.. we left. wanna go home. tt huei ming shook everyonez hands & gave a goodbye hug b4 goin. majiam hez flyin off to other country. keke. erm. my bro drive. i start to sing in his car when his music play along.. but suddenly i went silent.. coz im sleepin! keke. i alwayz hav a habit of sleepin in cars since i was young. hm. reached home @ 8.45pm. juz bathed. tomoro...

hm. juz got home not long ago. went out wit my fren fahmy aka tweezy. hez funny. we watched movie.. 'the longest yard'. itz funny. nice. cant believe 'stone cold' steve austin & goldberg acted in tt show. real hunk. used to dislike football games coz itz so rough & violent.. but now i find it exciting.. real fun watchin it. maybe itz juz a show.. diff from those real matches.. but like it. The Rock 'dwayne johnson' shld hav join da show coz he was a real football player. it wld be nicer to c him in there. keke. after da show went to far east makan. long john silver again. keke. saw a black & pink color shoes @ one of da shop there. actually aready saw it yest. like it. itz $29.90. maybe next time den buy. not really in need of tt. erm.. den walk a while.. go home. saw alex lee @ yishun mrt. chat wit him a lil' while.. den tk my bus home. hm. tomoro working 8-4pm shift. c whether can claim hr coz my bro's fren gonna celebrate his bday @ marina...

today worked 10-6pm shift.. coz gotta do linen inventory. at 1.30pm.. followed mrs Wan & ah Pat to go floor by floor to count ALL linen. even soiled ones. hm ok la. but kinda tired coz walked lotz & bend up & down to count da linen everywhere. wen im on the 3rd floor.. 'chu' (sandra) called me & asked where am i. i told her. den she said shez comin up. i tot wat shez up to. den she came. holdin a nice 'coffee bean' box.. sayin itz for my bday yesterday. actually she decide to buy for me on my actual bday but she woke up late so.. today she gave me. den she go for her work on da 6th flr lounge. when i opened up.. itz my fav BrOwniE!! she knows me well.. keke. thanx a millionz to her. when she & i alwayz go for b'fast @ coffee bean.. i will looked at the brownie.. sayin it looks delicious but itz kinda expensive so din try it. today she buy it for me. not juz one but twO! shez real nice. kinda touch yoo... keke. ^-^ den she say she got a present fo...

hm. today. my birthday. recieved quite a no. of sms bday wishes from frenz. kinda surprise that my shatec malay 'gang' (Da InTrOvErTeRz) sms me too. im happi. they still rem. keke. & today after my work got staff dialogue from 3.30pm to 5pm. my colleagues room stewardz reached there 1st yo. den i join them at their table. den later other ppl come. den i go join my f/o colleagues too. den listen to the nanny talk.. abt hotel.. rooms.. renovations.. occupany.. etc. den later they asked those bday staffs for tiz month to go in front. up on da lil' stage, felicia asked ard our birthdate. den i say mine'z today. she quickly pull me to stand in da centre & give me a long cake knife. lolx. so pai seh.. the choco cake is prepared by chef heng.. hez alwayz da one doin it. hm. we all sang bday song. den all eyez on me.. to blow out the one & only candle. me so gan jiong yo.. den dun dare to blow too hard.. "hoooh.." still there. "hooooh..." STILL t...

hm. yest went to msia city square wit my mum. sis-in-law. niece. & my hskp junior maggie. reached there ard 4+pm. shop til abt 7.30pm. den maggie, my sis-in-law & niece went bac to spore. my mum & i went bac to our msia house to stay for a nite there. slept at abt 3am. tiz morning woke up at abt 7.30am. we went to 'the Store' shoppin ctr but din know it only opens at 10am. duhz... acc my mum go 'bestmart' to pay for our 'Astro TV' bill. reached there at 9.15am. wait til it opens at 9.30am. den 'balik'. i made breakfast while my mum cleaned da garden. den we took a shower. rest. abt 2pm we went to 'bestmart' again to eat & buy things. i bot a pink bag.. earrings.. & some thingyz. den abt 5pm 'balik'. we packed our stuffs.. abt 6.50pm da transport we booked arr. we left. i slept in da car (as usual). til i reach my home (in spore). now im bac again.. tomoro im workin morning. my first 8-4pm shift. doin public area duty (...

hm. juz reach home. itz my dad's bday today. my whole family went to my workplace plaza parkroyal hotel for dinner @ da cafe. newly renovated. but not much changes. foodz nice. da new item 'chocolate fountain' lookz interesting. ^-^. my eldest bro blanja. i asked my DMngr to sign the bill for me for 50% disc. great yea. chat a lil' wit sheilla, gus, my 'darlinx' ravin & DM damien. but too bad din c sandra. shez up @ da orchid club. erm. i went for hair color treatment in da afternoon. kinda disappointed coz i chose 'blueberry'. but the color turned out to be real black. darker den my natural dark brown hair.. -_-. they din tell me if i wans the color to bo seen my hair needs to bleach. nvm. i'll go bac there. do it again. hm. tomoro me workin morning. wit maggie, housekeepin junior. shez nice. hm. on monday... me, my mum, maggie & my 'chu chu' (sandra), will be goin to jb. shop shop @ city square. den sandra & maggie will go bac s...

hm. hav been in hskp for a week. good. more relax. no need to stand all day. no need to face or attend nasty notti guestz... not tt stress. i get fed up easily when i come across 'ya ya' or nasty guests. but most of da time i'll keep da anger inside. which made me real stress. especially when i juz started my shift early in the morning. it will spoil my mood. but sometimes working wit fun colleagues do make me feel beta & forgetz abt the anger coz we'll laugh alot. in housekeepin dept room.. no anger. i'll only pick up calls.. page the room stewardz & stewardess.. do abit of reports.. take stocks.. etc. but dunno will i be goin up to make up rooms too. they din tell me. but if i follow nice nice room stewardz to make up room i dun mind. juz that workin wit nice ppl will do. gotta be there 1 month. hm. beri fast 1 la.. 3 more weeks to go now.. hm. gtg now. tat@!