~*R@in's BlOggiE*~

Love is a word expressing feeling But now day's people use it as if it had no meaning This is sad I'll tell you why Now this word makes people cry It used to bring us tears of joy But now it's just a hurting toy People say it then take it back With no promise, just like that People say it to get what they want And then they say, "I love you not." I wish this word could mean what it means to me Or maybe this is how it's just going to be And the true meaning of this word inside my head is now and forever truly dead!

Why can't I find it? Where can it be? Why is it hiding hiding from me? Where did I leave it? Where did I throw it away? Why can't I find it? Where can it be? Why does love hide? Hide from me...

haiz...holiday..kinda bored here..but luckily therez EuRo 2004 havin on now...so great man..everyday slept at abt 4.30am.. if got extra-time + penalty-kicks i gotta sleep at abt 5.30am. Da feelin is so good man wen i feel so tired..go into my room..den SLEEP!! lolz...den i gotta wake up at abt 2-3pm..keke...wat a sleepin rabbit..^-^ but me sooo happi coz portugal is into da semi-final!! gotta support dem wit all my 'energy' against the netherlands...protugal! portugal! portugal gotta win!! gO Go gO!! yEa man..keke...after Euro 2004..comin up next is 'Copa America Cup'!! startin 6th July..26 LIVE matches!! so exciting man... gotta catch dem! but by da time, skool reopens le...dun hav much time to watch..haiz...anyway...my jap aunt comin bac tis fri! gotta be great & hav so much fun! ok gtg le yo..tAtA..

The pain I feel Can not be forgotten So great and so deep A love that went rotten I hurt so much I want to die There's no life in me It's all said good-bye My heart literally aches It feels as if it has burst Each piece showing a sad story Of a lonely girl full of hurt I don't know what to do I don't know where to turn I just know one thing... The hurt inside really burns I need help But where do i go I am dead inside The hurt is all that ever shows...

LiViNg a LiFe tHaT i cAnT LeAvE BeHiNd... bUt i cAnT tAkE iT aNyMoRe... i'M gOiN cRaZy eAcH dAy... bUt tHaTz dA wAy tHaT iT gOeS... & nObOdY kNoWz... EvErYdAy, mY dEaTh iS dRaWiNg nEaReR... i'M oN mY wAy... tO dA tRiP tO tHe hEaVeN... GoD, pLz tAkE mE fAr aWaY... tO dA FuTuRe wE wiLL gO... wHeRe iT LeAdz, nO oNe kNoWz... sO mUm, DaD, dEaR fReNz... dUn m|z mE...

mY pAsT t|mEz R fuLL oF sAdnEsS...MoSt oF dA t|m3 iS LoVe pRobLemz...LaSt t|m3 eVeRyDaY i wiLL gEt sAd oVeR t|z gUy...tT gUy...aNd oSo...gOt hUrT dEePLy bY mAnY PeEpz..tHeY bRoKe mY hEaRt..tOrE iT aPaRt...i wAs s|cK & t|rEd oF aLL t|z tOoPiD tHiNgZ...sO FiNaLLy..i tEll mYseLf..iTz nOt wOrTh iT gEtTiN sAd oF aLL t|z tHiNgZ & mAkiN mY dAyZ bAd...i cAnT cOnTiNuE dOiN tT.. fAc|nG dA wOrLd w|tHoUt a sMiLe..sO i sToP cRy|n..w|pEd mY tEaRz wHiCh iS roLLiN dOwn mY cHeEkz..sTaNd uP sTrOnG oN mY fEeT..LoOk aHeAd..& sTeP iNtO mY 'nEw' liFe..i teLL mYseLf..tHeRe R mAnY th|ngZ ouT tHeRe wa|tiNg fOr mE tO dO & cOmpLeTe... fRoM dEn oN...mY hEaRt iS 'dEaD'...i gOt nO moRe 'fEeLiNgz'.. mAyBe i rEaLLy gOt huRt dEepLy..& i dUn wAn tT tO hApPen aGa|n cOz i wUn bE abLe tO tAkE iT...sO...i jUz lEaVe dA loVe mAtTeRz tO GoD & fAtE...jUz LeT tHeM dEc|dE! iF sMtH bEloNgz tO mE..iT wiLL cOmE tO mE..iF iT dOeS nOt beLonGz tO mE..iTz uSeLeSs f|nDiN iT..

rEcaLLiNg...tHeRez sOmEtHiNg hApPeNeD LaSt t|me tT i wiLL nEvA fOrGeT.....hM..tHiNk iTz.....JaN 2003..bcOz oF loVe pRobLeMz..i rAn aWaY fRoM hOmE...>_

cAn sOmEoNe PLEAZE TeLL mE y...wHy...wHy dA oNez cOnFeSs|nG tO mE iS nOt soMeOnE eLsE..wHy...iTz aLwAyZ liKe tT...wHy dA oNez i LiKe wiLL gO aWaY LeAv|nG mE bEh|nD..& dA oNez wHo sTaY r nOt dA oNe i liKe...wHy?? iS LiFe aLwaYz liKe tt?? iF sO..hOw i w|sH i cAn jUz cLoZe mY eYeZ & wiLL nEvA wAkE uP...aNd mY tEaRz wiLL rOll dOwN dA s|dE oF mY fAcE eVeRyNiTez..uNtiL mY mR. RiTe cOmE tO mY s|dE & wAkEz mE uP...dEn wiLL i oPeN mY eYez tO c h|m r|tE iN fRoNt oF mE...sMiLiNg iNto mY eYeZ...hOw i w|sH..iTz liKe tT.. bUt nO... >_

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