~*R@in's BlOggiE*~

woke up at noon . met alvin at NP , abt 1pm. went to timezone. boom boom . we planned to go his hse do his blogskin n play the sims 2 de. but last min he got smth on. he had to leave immediately. bo bian. so i went home . myself. so sad tt i cldnt even hav his time. we met for abt an hr nia. i wanted so much to cherish tiz last few hrz b4 i leave for thai de. but his dad needed him more den i do. n he needa help his dad more den being wit me. n it cldnt be blamed. indeed. his dad is more important. if i cant return, he cld find a replacement. but there'll be no replacement for his parentz de. for tiz. hez so rite. [: aniwae. guyz. im leavin spore tonite . for hat yai, thailand . flight is at 8.50pm . i'll be bac on saturday . afta midnite. pray for me. pray for my return. :X :P

[taken from my fren'z blog post. "dun mind o"] "hmmm,why do guys able to fall in love with two girls at the same time....unwilling to break off with the first gf and still wants to go into relationship with another girl..so funny..im not saying its my guy who did tht...but some kind of symptoms i discovered outside.guys just wants to have the best of the two world....(**)" [ Rain : i agree. we galz juz dun understand why. r guy like tt. juz heartless selfish n greedy creaturez. no offense. i meant it for thoz kinda guyz mentioned above.]

last nite. i past thoz hourz so terribly. i cried myself to slp. met alvin at NP , 2+pm . went to da food mall to look up for shi gong n his frenz . he using da bag me n alvin bot for his bday de o. heez. we chatted, laughed, had lunch tog. jap food. katsu don . todae shi gong told us some so-so interestin "new" storiez wor! kinda funni n so dramatic o... me excited til accidentally hit my ring on da table! lOlx. afta tt alvin n me headed to bugis . he bot da ring. our promise ring . a replacement for da ring of his i lost . [now da companion of my ring is bac le. they're tog again!] happi . hm. we den go bugis st . jln jln. bot bday present for our fren. we den went bac to bugis junction. boom boom . $6. alvin blanja o. heex. compared to my last time, i realised i realli improved in my initial D race timin. racing at akina, record was 3'21 . todae me abt 3'13 o! so happi . me din realised tt much diff til todae o. collected our ringz. [they polished m...

i laugh loud to hide my sobx, i smile big to hide my tearz, i tok little to hide my sad voice, i wear makeup to hide my red swollen eyez, but no matter what i were or put on, i cant hide my broken heart. broken heartz cannot be mended, merely patched and warn away. in e end they simply break again, but first they must begin to fray. but you have come with crystal thread, to mend my broken heart. to patch it up for good, for ya love i hope itz real deep true.

met alvin at abt 3pm , NP . went to hav our lunch at da food mall . soya sauce chic noodle 油鸡面. shared honey sea coconut w/ longan . 3.30pm. went to timezone. boom boom . 4pm . took train to yck. ssdc . alvin acc me there again. had my drivin lesson from 4.40-6.20pm . he booked his prac lessonz le. keke. we den took train bac to yishun . [at yck mrt de escalator, were rushin up for da train, me tripped over. nearly fell . but oni kena my front leg de bone . pain pain . humphx]. went to gv funland. boom boom again. coz noth to do. afta tt, bot ice blended oreo choco . headed home. alvin had dinner over at my place. he left for home at 9.30pm. afta he left. my eldest bro 'shoot' me. 'eldest bro' : eh? u not goin out wit alvin meh? rain : no ar. he goin home. 'eldest bro' : wah.... unbelievable ar.. so rarely u wld stay home early de. rain : -_-" [my family all laughin...]

where has everything gone? what happened to da old dayz? when we were happy, when we were sad, we were alwayz there for each other. what happened to da past? da dayz of old? when everythin was carefree. when we juz had fun anywhere. we would laugh at anythin. we would hav fun anywhere. we thot da same. we helped each other thru. da good and da bad, da tearz and da heartbreak. we were alwayz there to lend a hand. we had no idea wat was in store for da future. but, we helped each other thru. watever that came to us. alwayz there if we needed each other, always consoling to our problemz. "Sistaz n Broz til e end of time". but now... everythin'z different.... coz noth is going right anymore. our frienship was everything to us, but now, itz a thing to da side. all thoz yearz we were so close. all thoz yearz we had together fell apart in juz one single day. we loved each other like we were family. how could've you juz gone and did something like that? it came out of the blu...

read a newz from tonite de 联合晚报 ['lianhe wanbao']. a quite touchin but super sad story endin. a couple got married abt 18 yearz bac. a woman is mentally unstable. ['siao' de]. but still, da guy marry her. tt showz their true love. da guy really took care of her all along. they did gave birth to a daughter [who is oredi 17 yrz old now]. in da 4th yr afta their marriage, one day, da guy promised to bring his wife out to 'play'. but due to overtime work, he passed da time he shld be at home. his wife ended her life. committed suicide. he lived on a life wit alcoholic drinkz everyday. he became a drunkard. as dayz passed by.. he drinkz more n more.. not being able to look afta his daughter.. his younger sis looked afta her. not allowin da father of da gal to stay wit her. afraid tt 'incidentz' wld happen. recently, da guy came to visit his daughter. da gal told her dad tt she dun wanna c him if hez still drinkin all day. she dun wanna stay wit him. both sadl...

met alvin at NP @ abt 3.30pm . acc him go hav his lunch . food mall . me bot honeydew sago . we shared. we den go timezone. boom boom . finally my 'mazda rx7' is bac to my ' hometown' . keke. todae i used my car. find it faster . i improved . i hope to get beta. we den ate mac hot fudge sundae while waitin for bus 169 to alvin'z hse . got there at abt 5.45pm . started playin the sims 2 . we played tog. so fun . da game realli like real life de o. left his place at 9.30pm . bot some 'niap niap' at NP de kfc n mac for mummy. alvin sent me home . [on my way bac felt a deep hunger in my stomach]. got home at 11pm.

woke up at 8.30am . alvin came to my hse to fetch me. 11pm . yishun gv . ate LJS . value combo 1 . 1.10pm . boon lay. jurong point. star factory [arcade]. boom boom . finally i've 'revived' my initial D de 'car' . todae got a guy wanna challenged me . me was afraid. me dun hav da confident to race wit strangerz de. but was soooo happi . i won him 2 racez. 1st course by 400+m. 2nd course by a distance ba. so happi... 1st time me eva 'tok' strangerz in initial d racing o. heeex. afta boomin, we went to buy bubble tea from Cool Station . choco blast . nice. bot an orange color sling bag frm 'yellow', for shi gong'z bday present . bot a 'special glue' for da completion of our disney jigsaw puzzle 'finishin' . we den went to alvin'z hse . finished our final step of our jigsaw puzzle. we played the sims 2. created our own charac. at abt 7.30pm we left. rushed to shi gong'z bday bbq party at yishun 126. his actual bda...

3pm . took a cab down to shi gong hse . alvin was there to help him wit his comp internet connection. alvin n me left his hse @ 3.50pm . walked to yishun mrt . bot ice blended oreo choco [not nice de :( ] on our way there. took train [hidin our drinkz] to yck . alvin 1st time acc me to ssdc o. me got drivin lesson . 4.40-6.20pm . [while he waitin for me at da canteen for 100minz o]. scared he get bored or sian o. luckily canteen got tv to entertain him . heex. we den took train bac to yishun . went to NP timezone boom boom . waited for quite sometime. b4 we cld play. finished at abt 8pm . went to gv buy ice blended oreo choco . [taste beta]. mummy called. she, daddy n koko were headin to msia . [im takin over da master bedrm tonite muahaha...]. headed home. alvin acc me at home. [coz i was being alone]. i brot out my childhood photo albumz for him to c. afta tt we had [mummy cooked de] dinner tog . b4 he headed home at 11.20pm . tomoro shi gong will be havin a par...

..HaPpi BiRthDay XiOng.. woke up by alvin'z sms at 10+am. he came to my hse to fetch me at abt 11.30am. left home bringin along da disney jigsaw puzzle , couple cupz n mashi maro 'massager' we bot yest [ to put at his hse ]. went to NP . boom boom at timezone. bot some sushi . went to cold storage . bot chicken stock n pokka drinkz . wanna go alvin'z hse . waited at da bus stop outside NP . tt was when he found out smth .... " huh?! [lookin at our fingerz] wherez my ring.....? " my heart paused for a sec . sh*t! i recalled.... ...when we were at timezone he passed our couple ringz to me. i wore both his n mine on my fingerz. but his ring was too loose on my fingerz. me din keep it properly. tink i dropped it somewhere. oh my.......... he went to find it while i waited at da bus stop. lookin blank . recallin... tryin to rem where i wld lost it.. hopin he wld find it . as it symbolisez our promise . i felt so afraid suddenly . my mind spinz . tearz fil...

there r thingz kpt in my heart i shld speak out in my blog. abt da guy who used to be one of my buddiez. but juz bcoz of some small matterz. he avoided us. read his blog recently. cldnt stand it. boaster? charity show? or 'special' edition storiez? his doingz remindz me of another incident tt happened b4. btwn frenz, fightz n blogz. tiz wat i found in da blog of his. da heart. da inside of da author. "我要疯了, 真的要疯了....真的希望我可以像以前有 coma wat oso no need to worry liao...today wish to be happi becos its mei's birthday de...den suddenly augre with alvin abt the $ i borrow frm him de...i alway help him or cover him but he still shoot me in front of mei...he say he is not forcing me to return him $ , darm him not force...shit cant buy tis cant buy tat cant buy HG still say not forcing ...very thg i wrong, yes i am damn fcukin wrong la...i fcukin hate myself, do everythg is failure...no $ no nothg...i........damn my fuckin life damn it..." [ Rain : wished to be like how u u...

..HaPpi biRtHdaY NuRaSyiKiN!.. woke up at 11.30am. left home 2pm . met alvin @ NP . went to gv de BK for our lunch . went jln jln at minitoonz . [he] bot a few itemz.. - 2 cutie cupz [w/ lidz] @ $1.90 each oni. - a wooden 'stick' wit plush mashi maro head at da top. [massager] - a walt disney de 'big storybook like' cushion . [for syikin'z bday present ]. alvin den acc me to da mrt station. he den go shi gong hse . help him wit his comp. me took train to yck. ssdc . drivin lesson 4.40-6.20pm . todae de intsuctor oso not bad . kinda aged tho. but still beri alert n kinda funni. keke. went bac yishun . gv. long john silver . looked up for alvin , shi gong n his frenz . da situation was funni tho. ...me spotted 'em sittin there le. while approachin them, all saw me comin but alvin din c. i stood behind alvin. da rest of them sittin were givin a funni look tryin to laugh but not to laugh. lolx. alvin still din notice o. til i appear b4 him. keke. funni lo ...

woke up at 12.30pm. 5+pm . met alvin @ NP . shopped at cold storage . - udon noodle [a pack of 4] - 1 bottle pokka lychee tea - 1 bottle pokka peach tea - 1 pack of chicken fillet - 100g gourmet mushrm ham - 100g WF mushrm luncheon - 1 black pepper chicken leg [baked] - 1 honey glazed chicken leg [baked] = S$11.27 [alvin paid '$' i paid '¢'. keke] went to gv . bot ice blended oreo choco . took bus 169 to alvin'z hse . at nite we cook our own dinner o. preparin, cookin n washin up time took abt 1h 30minz o.. stir-fry udon . ate it wit da baked chic leg . hmm...... niCe~ at abt 10.50pm alvin'z daddy gave me a ride home . alvin den sent me to my doorstep . 11pm . he den went home himself.

was tired in da mornin. wished i cld slp more . but cant . got out off bed at 11.30am. met alvin at NP ard 1pm . lunch @ da food mall . pattaya fried rice w/ black pepper chic . along wit our honeydew sago . afta tt we go jln jln . 2pm . alvin acc me to mrt station . he went home . me had my drivin prac lesson @ yck. ssdc . 2.40-4.20pm . todae'z instructor taught me b4 de. hez nice . finished lesson. while walkin bac to yck mrt. saw alvin a distance away. he wanted to give me a lil' surprise de. as he din tell me tt hez comin. but... ended up i spotted him 1st. lolx . nvm. hez still a 'newbie'. still 'learnin'. got da 'heart' can le. heex. called ron . asked him go play lan [chambers]. he said ' ok '. called weijie . asked him to come along. but he said ' cant '. took train bac to yishun . walked to chamberz . but while waitin for ron to arr. we went to mac . bot mcnuggetz 9pcz. iced jasmine green tea . sat down n eat. ron ...

hey guyz! im bac from cameron highlandz~ went wit my mummy, cousin sis, alvin, uncle ricky n his wife. hm. me summarise abt my happeninz in tiz few dayz ba. -friday 15 sept 06- "happi birthday to sha" met alvin at abt noon at NP . had our 'bfast' tog. ya kun french toast . went to boom boom @ timezone. went to orchard. 2pm. taka . vision express. to make alvin'z specz lenz. went shoppin ard. alvin bot famous amos. ate takoyaki. went ard lookin for sha'z bday present. taka. toyz department. we decided to buy a controllable car for him. 3+pm went to collect da specz lenz. took train to amk . bus 169 to alvin'z hse . helped him packed his stuffz . at 5+pm we took cab to my hse . had a shower . packed my stuffz . 6+pm. left home. went to NP. acc alvin go buy a new sportz shoez . wind breaker too. bot ice blended oreo . walked to chong pang area. saw weijie ys shi gong they all @ 139 playin bba ll. oni shi gong got tok to me. da rest like 'c me du...

hmm. browsed thru my frenz' blogz n herez watz i've found todae! interestin. funni. sweet. memorable. [thingz i gotta keep in my memory].. tk sometime to read 'em ba. "BoyStratus" blog'z ' KPO Magazine issue 17 ' posted on 13 September 2006. [ rain : funni. interestin 'story'. tho itz made up. keke!] "furideriku" (Alex Son) blog'z 'Gut feeling' posted on 14 September 2006. "hmmm today is RAIN birthday .. i guess today she very busy .. with her boyfriend lol ... OH YEAH .. i forget to take photo of them ... CAN I TAKE ONE PICTURE ? CAN I PUT HERE ? .. i must seek permission from them .... today is her birthday ..so i must write something abt her as memorial .... how i start .. mmmm rain is my third person i know during the first term in school .... so happen to be in same group for one of module ... so that how friendship begin ... i can`t remember how i stuck a conversation with her ... i can remember where i approach...

8.30am . gave alvin 'wake up call' . 9.30am . he arr at my door . wit a cute lil' bouquet of flowerz . 3 stalkz of pink rosez surrounded by white crysanthemumz . white crysanthemumz?! lolx. hmmm....... alvin quickly plucked 'em off da bouquet. left oni 3 rosez. claimed ttz not da kind he chose de. keke. he doesnt mean any 'meanin' or 'harm' tho. forgiven . for his quick reaction. lol me styled his hair. 10.30am . left home . headed to bugis junction . empty stomachz. went for our bfast . Delifrance . le classique mealz . total $18.80. was alvin'z 1st time dinin in there . went to 'silver corner' . alvin bot a pair of couple ringz . $86 . [not clear o tiz pic] wit engravement of 'forever'/'love' & our namez in da inner side . wah... so nice..... ^-^ muz realli prevent scratchez n tk care o... we den went ard lookin for optical shopz . alvin'z wanna buy specz. he bot a nail glitter for me ! $8 . went shoppin to...

met alvin @ abt 12.45pm , NP . went to timezone. boom boom . happi tt i finally can lead at 秋明山 o.. da food mall . italian foodz . chicken n mushrm pesto for me. lasagne for alvin. along wit our honeydew sago . met sha for awhile. b4 me headed to yck. ssdc . driving prac lesson 2.40-4.20pm . luv da female instructor todae. she guided well. alvin waited for me at yck mrt. headin to town. steamboat dinner tonite @ 6pm , marina , organised by ron . but was early. so we dropped off at city hall . raffles place shoppin ctr . went jln jln. alvin bot takoyaki [ham & cheese]. we shared. hmm... yoishi... at abt 5.50pm . we took train to marina bay . took bus to da steamboat place. coincidently met ron n alex on da bus! decided to try pin xian bbq steamboat . ok la . to me itz not much diff ba. we started eatin. lata sophia came. irene came quite late ba. a [deaf] lady came to us. tryin to sell plush toyz @ $13 each [made by da deaf]. we rejected at 1st. but lata sophi...

felt da jealousy in my heart. wheneva i see her name. wheneva i hear her name. i juz cldnt stand it. does he still miss her? does he still hav feelinx for her? does he still tink of her at timez? i thot to myself. yea i tink so. he still do. why why why?!?! tink he hasnt totally get her off his mind. i dun believe tt he doesnt tink of her at all. haix. he still hav her in mind. or perhapz. itz juz all my own imaginary world. i dunno. oni he does. oni he knowz watz in his mind. his heart. f*ck. i hate da rage n jealousy im alwaez havin. ttz y i hate fallin for someone. for all tt i know. da jealousy n sensitivity in me is ultra strong. which spoilz my mood. love. everythin. i. hate. love. life. everythin.