hm. last nite slpt at 4am. woke up 11+am tiz mornin. went to blk 400+ nearby shopz at abt 2+pm wit my mum. went to my mum's fren's salon. did our hair. colored my hair deep blue. a lil' here n there. now not tt obvious. probably dayz later when it startz to fade ba. finshed off oni at abt 8pm. my 2nd bro bot dinner le fetch us home. had our dinner. bathed. now im here.
hm. im still da same sad me. haix. find tt hee doesnt seemz to be how hee was like b4. now i seldom hear from him tt much le. da way hee say thingz isnt da same le. how i wish tt everythin was liked b4. unchanged. da same... -_-.. i woke up in da mornin, switched on my hp, to recieve his mornin sms. tt juz made me smile. n hee wld end da nite wit a good nite sms. missed. loved. (ttz how hee alwayz used to say). n when itz rainin heavily, hee wld sms me askin me to be careful. so & so.. i tot hee was realli nice.. but now. almost everythin changed. as if it juz turned over. ttz it. itz all silence. ttz juz makez me feel so down. hee gave me so much hope. i was taken into it. but now, is hee takin it away from me??? goSh. save me man. my mind r full of sadness n negative thotz. haix. if hee wanna go, at least let me know. so i cld stop myself frm fallin for him & tk tiz time to heal my sadness n short pain, n wun put my heart into it n gettin myself hurt in e end. but hee din speak up. how am i to know watz on his mind?? haix... hee doesnt know. i've alwayz been waitin all day since i wake up til i slp, juz to hear frm him. but now r juz disappointmentz. shld i withdraw myself? haiz~!!! maybe we shld tok abt thoz one day. so much thingyz to clarify. sadnxzz.......... >_<..
hm. im still da same sad me. haix. find tt hee doesnt seemz to be how hee was like b4. now i seldom hear from him tt much le. da way hee say thingz isnt da same le. how i wish tt everythin was liked b4. unchanged. da same... -_-.. i woke up in da mornin, switched on my hp, to recieve his mornin sms. tt juz made me smile. n hee wld end da nite wit a good nite sms. missed. loved. (ttz how hee alwayz used to say). n when itz rainin heavily, hee wld sms me askin me to be careful. so & so.. i tot hee was realli nice.. but now. almost everythin changed. as if it juz turned over. ttz it. itz all silence. ttz juz makez me feel so down. hee gave me so much hope. i was taken into it. but now, is hee takin it away from me??? goSh. save me man. my mind r full of sadness n negative thotz. haix. if hee wanna go, at least let me know. so i cld stop myself frm fallin for him & tk tiz time to heal my sadness n short pain, n wun put my heart into it n gettin myself hurt in e end. but hee din speak up. how am i to know watz on his mind?? haix... hee doesnt know. i've alwayz been waitin all day since i wake up til i slp, juz to hear frm him. but now r juz disappointmentz. shld i withdraw myself? haiz~!!! maybe we shld tok abt thoz one day. so much thingyz to clarify. sadnxzz.......... >_<..
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