sian. real sian. last nite slpt at 2+am. woke up 8+am tiz mornin. wana slp but cant. so got up lo.
was sad last nite. me n him was smsin. last nite. but suddenly no reply. made my mind spinz. did i said da wrong thing? tt hurt him again? im soo not sure. coz it juz went silent. hee din speak up. which mkz me worry more. haiz. y thinz turned out like tt when itz juz da start. but i realli dun understand guyz lo. is 'sex thingy stuffz' so important in a relationship? but not for me. i mayb diff frm da many other galz tt guyz cld find outside. i tink hee shld either accept me da way i am n respect me tOo. or cld juz dun give me any hope. plz dun give me so much hope n den tk it away. i've hardly trust n believe in guyz. bcoz of wat they dO n tink. yea i agree wat faith said.. "when galz flirt, guyz tink they're slut n b*tchez. but when guyz flirt ard, they'll say 'c'mon, itz normal for guyz to flirt!'" duhz sux big time. real bullsh*T! i hate hate hate guyz who tink tt way. they juz hav no brainz! i realli hope someone cld prove me wrong. tt not all guyz r baddiez. but real sian diao.. my maO 'xiao di' told me "good guyz all die le.". goSh~ wat kinda world am i living in? hope ttz not true. hm.
me din slpt well last nite. i left my hp 'on' waitin for his reply. but din. oni til tiz aftnn. hee said hee doze off last nite. shld i believe? i realli dunno. not i dun trust him. itz tt sometimez da thingz n da way hee say thingz.. dun sound real. hee've not been sincere enuff to prove to me. dun understand. til now i still dunno wat hee does in life. where hee goes. y is hee kinda secretive? hm. dunno. n hee said hee will be celebratin his bday tomoro. invited me. but last nite i said smth.. which mkz him kinda tok differently le. den suddenly hee said ehe dun wanna celebrate le. he no mood. n need to go his ah mah's hse. is tt true? i dunno either. or izzit bcoz of wat i said disappoint him. den he dun wan me to go. or is he invitin another gal of his own. haiz. how i wish i cld read his mind. if my 'negative tinkin' is true.. den i beta leave him. i dun wan my heart to break again. if my 'negative tinkin' is not wat he tinkz or doin.. den itz bad for me to mistaken him. haiz. nvm. wat to do. i'll juz let it be. time will alwayz tell da truth. i'll wait. >_<,
was sad last nite. me n him was smsin. last nite. but suddenly no reply. made my mind spinz. did i said da wrong thing? tt hurt him again? im soo not sure. coz it juz went silent. hee din speak up. which mkz me worry more. haiz. y thinz turned out like tt when itz juz da start. but i realli dun understand guyz lo. is 'sex thingy stuffz' so important in a relationship? but not for me. i mayb diff frm da many other galz tt guyz cld find outside. i tink hee shld either accept me da way i am n respect me tOo. or cld juz dun give me any hope. plz dun give me so much hope n den tk it away. i've hardly trust n believe in guyz. bcoz of wat they dO n tink. yea i agree wat faith said.. "when galz flirt, guyz tink they're slut n b*tchez. but when guyz flirt ard, they'll say 'c'mon, itz normal for guyz to flirt!'" duhz sux big time. real bullsh*T! i hate hate hate guyz who tink tt way. they juz hav no brainz! i realli hope someone cld prove me wrong. tt not all guyz r baddiez. but real sian diao.. my maO 'xiao di' told me "good guyz all die le.". goSh~ wat kinda world am i living in? hope ttz not true. hm.
me din slpt well last nite. i left my hp 'on' waitin for his reply. but din. oni til tiz aftnn. hee said hee doze off last nite. shld i believe? i realli dunno. not i dun trust him. itz tt sometimez da thingz n da way hee say thingz.. dun sound real. hee've not been sincere enuff to prove to me. dun understand. til now i still dunno wat hee does in life. where hee goes. y is hee kinda secretive? hm. dunno. n hee said hee will be celebratin his bday tomoro. invited me. but last nite i said smth.. which mkz him kinda tok differently le. den suddenly hee said ehe dun wanna celebrate le. he no mood. n need to go his ah mah's hse. is tt true? i dunno either. or izzit bcoz of wat i said disappoint him. den he dun wan me to go. or is he invitin another gal of his own. haiz. how i wish i cld read his mind. if my 'negative tinkin' is true.. den i beta leave him. i dun wan my heart to break again. if my 'negative tinkin' is not wat he tinkz or doin.. den itz bad for me to mistaken him. haiz. nvm. wat to do. i'll juz let it be. time will alwayz tell da truth. i'll wait. >_<,
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