last night. my eyes were swelling.
and friends like ah chua, has got long antenna.
his gf, jerene, went to tell him
something's not right (with me).
he treats me like his own sister.
he wanna share my sorrows and would like to give advises if he's able to.
and with just these words. "ok lo."
he came down. right under my block. all the way from clementi.
yea. last night i had a live nightmare.
everything crashed upon each other. messed up everything.
and i lost everything. painfully.
ah chua dunno whats going on with me tho. he kept asking.
not long after, version arrived. *what a surprise*
i only cried and sad and emo and moody only,
2 brudders came down for my sake.
T_T
one with a hard approach, who would screw u upside down.
one with a soft approoach, who tried to make u understand.
but both have one thing in common. insensitivity.
LOL~ uhh....... now u know, how sensitive i am? =]
i know they kinda wanna vomit blood advising me.
but. i feel that, not everyone thinks alike.
not everyone is as bad.
not everyone is as true.
not everyone's wants are the same.
not everyone, FEELS..... the same.
im born this way. this bad.
im born to be such a pessimist.
im born to be such a soft hearted.
im born with a heart that breaks down easily.
and so, with that heart, i get touched or moved, easily.
not everyone is like me.
neither you or you.
so we cannot compare.
i know. u all were advising and explaining again & again, for my own good.
i know. u all dont wanna see me getting hurt too many times.
but sometimes. somethings, cannot be controlled.
anyway, from what u see and hear,
doesnt mean u've understood me inside out.
liked ver said, "she go for looks".
u sure?
liked ah chua said, "first impression".
u sure?
i disagree. i dunno anything about others. but i know myself best.
not everytime when i fall, i fall the same old way.
its all about the heart. the feelings.
not everyone would understand.
in my current situation.
some might think im a player.
some might think im 'easy'.
some might think im 'low'.
some might think im such a despo for love.
whatever. think whatever u want 'bout me.
u only see what i choose to show.
there's so much.... u dont know. =]
anyway. thanks ah chua & ver.
for coming down just for me. as late as 1am.
this is ah chua. =)
hmphx. today im still feeling lost.
i've lost.... them all.
i just need time.
i dont wanna hurt anyone, including myself.
so..... stay away from me. T_T
and friends like ah chua, has got long antenna.
his gf, jerene, went to tell him
something's not right (with me).
he treats me like his own sister.
he wanna share my sorrows and would like to give advises if he's able to.
and with just these words. "ok lo."
he came down. right under my block. all the way from clementi.
yea. last night i had a live nightmare.
everything crashed upon each other. messed up everything.
and i lost everything. painfully.
ah chua dunno whats going on with me tho. he kept asking.
not long after, version arrived. *what a surprise*
i only cried and sad and emo and moody only,
2 brudders came down for my sake.
T_T
one with a hard approach, who would screw u upside down.
one with a soft approoach, who tried to make u understand.
but both have one thing in common. insensitivity.
LOL~ uhh....... now u know, how sensitive i am? =]
i know they kinda wanna vomit blood advising me.
but. i feel that, not everyone thinks alike.
not everyone is as bad.
not everyone is as true.
not everyone's wants are the same.
not everyone, FEELS..... the same.
im born this way. this bad.
im born to be such a pessimist.
im born to be such a soft hearted.
im born with a heart that breaks down easily.
and so, with that heart, i get touched or moved, easily.
not everyone is like me.
neither you or you.
so we cannot compare.
i know. u all were advising and explaining again & again, for my own good.
i know. u all dont wanna see me getting hurt too many times.
but sometimes. somethings, cannot be controlled.
anyway, from what u see and hear,
doesnt mean u've understood me inside out.
liked ver said, "she go for looks".
u sure?
liked ah chua said, "first impression".
u sure?
i disagree. i dunno anything about others. but i know myself best.
not everytime when i fall, i fall the same old way.
its all about the heart. the feelings.
not everyone would understand.
in my current situation.
some might think im a player.
some might think im 'easy'.
some might think im 'low'.
some might think im such a despo for love.
whatever. think whatever u want 'bout me.
u only see what i choose to show.
there's so much.... u dont know. =]
anyway. thanks ah chua & ver.
for coming down just for me. as late as 1am.
this is ah chua. =)
hmphx. today im still feeling lost.
i've lost.... them all.
i just need time.
i dont wanna hurt anyone, including myself.
so..... stay away from me. T_T
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